Mission Possible

Its easy to make a list of things which you want to achieve in the next few years. Its simple to say yes I'm going to do this because i need to and because i want to. Its easy...the words roll off your tongue. When you're saying it, it feels so good, it feels so liberating, it feels so possible. You have a plan, you map everything out step by step you go to the extent of creating a spreadsheet and writing down each and every step precisely how it will be done, you're so hopeful. You tell people around you what you want to do and you have done that so much that when they see you they tell YOU what you want to do! Its all you talk about you have it set, its ready, but.....It won't go...it won't go it won't grow it won't move or budge it lays lifeless in your brain spilled on that spreadsheet viewed by your eyes which seem to water each time you peek at your master plan gone haywire.

Is this water tears? tears of frustration because you dream but never seem to achieve. It is not out of laziness or the lack of inspiration because you are full of energy and surrounded by inspiring situations and objects and words. It may be genetic but you wipe that off because your fate can't be determined by biology. Reverse psychology. You keep making up excuses saying that right now the time is not right that you must focus on academics, that you must focus on being a wife, that you must focus on family life, that you must sacrifice your dream no matter how much that dream reappears in your thinking. Constantly. Constantly AS IN right now. It hits you in the night, in the middle of thoughts and planning, you gaze once more at the spreadsheet and this time instead of crying, you pick up a pen and you begin 2 write because the time is now and now is currently taking place and if you live for others your fate goes to waste. SO I BEGIN THIS JOURNEY AND I TAKE WITH ME ALL WHO DISCOVER ME AS I LOOK FOR WHERE I'M MEANT TO BE.

HELLO I'M QUEEN-O AND I'M A LYRICIST, FEMINIST, ACTIVIST, BLOGGER, POET, SPOKEN WORD ARTIST, FIGHTER FOR ALL THINGS WHICH ARE RIGHT AND SHOULD BE. SUBSCRIBE TO MY BLOG. ENTER MY MIND AS I TAKE YOU THROUGH MY JOURNEY.